On Releasing the Kraken
Like the woman in this painting hanging on my wall, I have sexual desires and I'm proud of them! There, I said it! I want to have sex and not just in the future but today! Right now to be specific. Before I scare you off, I'll add that I'm not sexually active. A few years ago I re-made what I felt to be a God honoring decision that until I met my husband I would not even so much as hold a man's hand affectionately. I had initially made the decision as a teenager but needed to remake it as an adult now that I had a deeper understanding of why I wanted this for my life. That decision was re-made 6 years ago and I've by God's amazing grace alone (and I mean alone) stayed with it. These sexual desires have not diminished for lack of an outlet. In fact, they seem to have grown. I did not realise the extent till I met "le boo" and caught a glimpse of the creature that was lying beneath in wait to be awoken.
Said creature was stirred a few times but not fully awoken and that led me to institute the do-not-kiss-me-till-we-are-married-lest-you-release-the-kraken rule! I'm yet to think of a fancy name or hashtag for it but in essence, I told "Le boo" that if he did not wish to release the Kraken he was best keeping his hands and lips to himself. Just in case you have no idea what I'm talking about, watch this and continue reading.
Don't laugh at me! THIS is what lies beneath. THIS is sometimes (more like most times) the intensity of the desires I feel. Did I mention it had been six looooooong years since a man kissed me? Of course "Le boo" stirred the Kraken! I'm quite proud of the Kraken in me actually. I feel just like the woman in the painting on my wall featured above. She seems to have a proud knowing in what she possesses in her sexuality but is reserving the revelation of it. I mean, who best to have the potential to fully experience all that sex promises to inspire between a woman and her husband than the daughter of the God that created it? Exactly! And experience it I fully intend to do, at it's intended time. Then, my husband can say like Solomon,
“I have come into my garden, my sister, my [promised] bride;
I have gathered my myrrh along with my balsam and spice [from your sweet words].
I have eaten my honeycomb with my honey;
I have drunk my wine with my milk.
Eat, friends;
Drink and drink deeply, O lovers.”
I don't know about you but eating honey and drinking wine and milk sounds a whooooooooole lot like passionately and intensely intimate sex to me. And, clearly it was sweet and made him light headed and then tired. Yup! So, like I said, we are instituting the do-not-kiss-me-till-we-are-married-lest-you-release-the-kraken rule! This is not about setting appropriate boundaries or not crossing the line. Do you need to watch that video again? Said Kraken-like desire will demolish all boundaries placed in its path so it is best left asleep and unstirred till it can be released with no unintended casualties, emphasis on unintended ;)
I'm not recommending this to the whole world, but if you are like me this might be wise and your husband will thank you when your inner Kraken is finally released! :)
