I Sing Because He Holds My Heart

Yes, this mangled heart sure does sing.

 

Several people have asked me what the title of this blog means. On the about page is a poem I wrote that was the origin of the name. The poem speaks of the journey to making a very deliberate decision to surrender my life completely to Jesus, My One True God. See, I already loved him but I had closed off certain doors in my life and marked them with do not enter signs.

My heart had become mangled and truly a ghastly sight, beaten by hurt, regret, disappointment, criticism, neglect, abandonment and a myriad of other things a girl that grows up in a less than perfect world encounters. Each door that was off limit had contributed to my heart's mangled state. I decided to hand over the keys to every door in my heart to Jesus and the most amazing thing happened; my heart began to sing. I was shocked by how much life it still possessed. I was shocked that it could still sing. I was shocked that I could be beautiful. And for the first time I knew what real love looked like, staring into the eyes of the one that made my heart sing.

Today my heart still sings and funny enough, it is still mangled. I don't need it to be perfectly shaped and smooth. No, that would not be real, for life is neither perfect nor smooth; however, no matter what life brings, the love of Jesus evokes a song in this mangled heart of mine, reminding me that I'm alive, my mangledness doesn't define me, and beauty lives within me for his enjoyment, my delight and the benefit of those around me...

So I sing, because he holds my heart! And I share some of those songs in each blog post. I hope you enjoy reading the words and listening to the "songs" in them.